Thursday, April 10, 2008
Biggest regret
This is so disturbing. I kept thinking about the break up since yesterday and I didn't have peace while eating or studying. Every little moments are still fresh in my mind. I was once so crazy over him and now, I ditched him. I was so stupid for saying all those hurtful words to him. I always cried and cried, even during lessons. I cried silently so that no one could hear me. I just didn't want to trouble anyone. To be honest, I miss him. Yes I do. I would always reminisce everything we did together in the past. Somehow, I wish that I could bury the past and move on with life. It will make me cry whenever I think of him. It's true. I always wanted a break because I was foolish. I thought breaking up would end everything. I thought I could still be happy. But I was wrong. I'm suffering even more.
I know he wouldn't give me another chance. Nazimah told me that he once said, ''Once I break up with Eeqa, I'll not ask for a patch''. So yeah, I've to move on with life without turning back. I must be strong and go back to my track again. I swear I'll miss the old cheerful and loud me. I've turned quite quiet since yesterday because everything seems to bother my mind. Please God, erase the past for me. Make me forget about him. Make him forget about me, the cold-hearted bitch. Please, it hurts a lot! I rather meet up with an accident rather than thinking about all this. ):
Gosh. I hope he'll be blessed with a better girl. God, please bless him with someone even better than me. I want to see him happy. Typing all this makes me cry. I swear, it hurts a lot. Please, make him happy. Please, I beg you. I want to see him happy with some other girl. I'm going to miss him a lot. ))))):
