Awake in the middle of the night after receiving a very last minute details about going to Istana later. Thanks to my fiance for the very last minute plan. Now, how am I supposed to contact Sutri? This is the problem now. If that guy would have told Ayesha earlier, we could have informed Sutri. She doesn't have any handphone and the only number I can call is her house. I don't dare to call her house and disrupt everyone's sleep in this kind of time. I'll try to call at 6:30 in the morning. Would that be too early?

Oh yes, father's new bike is effing cool man! (so random) I don't know what to type. What should I type? I'm no longer sleepy and I don't have the mood to sleep. Huh? I'm so lazy to go to bed also. My butt is glued to this chair, so let's wait for the sun to rise so that there will be sunlight. When there's sunlight, there's heat, therefore, the glue on my butt and the chair will melt? What rubbish am I talking about? This happens when the clock has striked midnight.

God, I'm a biggest loser alive in love life. When I say something nicely, he would think that I screamed. I guess that my voice is already like that? Too high is it? What do you readers think? I feel like I'm talking to the wall while typing all this down. But it's ok. It's good if you guys are reading. If not, thumbs up! (doing the thumbs up sign alone) Hope that no one saw that. *voice inside* (like of course, no one's reading, duh) Why in the world am I talking alone?! For God's sake, stop talking to yourself, Eeqa. Whoever you are, just shut up. I love talking to myself. No, you shut up first. No, you shut up second. Ok great, I shut up first then it will be your turn to shut up. Deal? Alright, deal! I said shut up! Then how am I supposed to answer you, stupid? *roll eyes*

Back on the track! Ignore the previous paragraph. I was entertaining myself and my broken heart. Gee, this sounds quite emo-ish. But it's true what? I hate having bad terms with my boyfriend. I'll be sad and he'll be sad. I don't know who to blame. Me? Him? Obviously, I should blame myself for being so heartless. I don't know whether I should cry or laugh? Eat or sleep? Smile or grin? Kill myself or slit my wrist? Wah! That one over sia. Tsk tsk tsk, I don't dare to risk my life just over love. Oh c'mon, like my mother always say, "Ade hikmah di sebaliknye". What's that supposed to mean? I'm not 100% confirm about the meaning. Well, I think hikmah is wisdom? So, everything has a wisdom behind it? I don't know larh. Don't mind my poor english, I need to read dictionaries every reading period. Sorry, don't mind my after-midnight-madness. This happens all the time despite frustrated or sad. I feel like going out now and scold vulgarities to some innocent passerby. I'm so sad, heartbroken and frustrated? I don't know how I should describe my feelings.