14 August - 9 November 2008

I'm sure going to miss this little guy so much. My first terrapin ever which Shervelle gave it to me. I just can't stop crying. It hurts me so much to see pictures of Austin. I know it's silly to cry over animals. But I have a weak heart, you see.

I cried when I had to let go of my kitten. I cried when my favourite gerbil and hamsters died. I cried when my fishes died. I cried when my lou han had to be given away and now, I cried because my terrapin just died.

I shouldn't have put the tank under the bamboo poles. My grandmother was carrying the bamboo pole when it fell and hit the tank. The whole tank then dropped onto the floor. I carried the tank, pebbles and the terrapins. Both of them seemed alright, just a little bit shocked. So I thought everything was going to be fine.

When I was outside, I received a message from my father, saying that one of my terrapins died. I didn't really care about that because I thought Ringo was the dead one. I suspected him because he doesn't eat and he's much more smaller and weaker than Austin. So, I didn't think much about it.

When I reached home, I asked my father about the terrapin again. He told me that he didn't throw it yet and asked me to either bury it or throw it down the bin. I went to the kitchen to see which was the dead one. I was shocked when I found out that Austin died. I broke down into tears and my grandmother seemed to be blaming herself for the bamboo pole incident. I didn't blame her for that because I know that she didn't do it on purpose. It was very stupid of me to put the tank at that kind of spot. I saw Austin floating and I carried it. His mouth was wide opened. I cried even more because his condition was so pitiful. I thought of burying it at first. But I couldn't stand it and I just put Austin inside a plastic and threw it down the rubbish chute. Then I realized that it was very rude for me to do that. I regretted for throwing instead of burying. What could I do? I was so upset that I didn't know what I was doing. If only I can go to the big bin and take everything out and look for Austin. I think he died maybe because he was shocked? ):

My grandmother wants to buy for me a new one because she still thinks that it's her fault. I keep telling her that it isn't. I thought of buying a new one tomorrow which exactly looks like Austin. Dark green coloured shell and adorable eyes.

Will update again tomorrow.

10:41PM